Dead be the new Red

And then, I was you

2011-06-06T03:23:00.001-07:00

The stars danced in my eyes

as I was carried off by the moon

On a train of fast like lightning

that could not arrive too soon

As I spoke to Father and Mother planets

Frozen, became the Sea

As I came back to Earth,

I wandered her Oceans Free

I would be found dancing across her Rivers

Calling you next to me.

Their became a Dragon

She carried me on her wings

through the winter of Darkest Sorrows

to the arms of My loving King

He spoke to me of Dragonflies

who made the Angels Sing....

Songs carried to the heavens

but sent to US on the Wind!

This Rainbow colored Chariot

Made my heart Beat like African Drums

As I became you

and WE became ONE

Dragonflies Landed on our shoulders

to listen to our Song be sung

For reasons still unknown to me

My life, had just begun <3

The Story Never Ended

2011-05-21T23:34:00.001-07:00

Gems hung high in the sky, I am your shooting star.

A World away from any world, but our world...is no world at all.

We are a part of a picture, held high above the sounds of Wreckage which make sweet music if you listen with big ears, and a soft heart...Filled with tunes on it's own, it was never taught to dance this way...but on magic the roaming never ends, it just starts another story. We are just two rainbows, hanging off of a cloud which sings songs so loud that everyone can hear if they take a moment to listen with a little bit of ear, and a lotta bit of heart! We made Love into an Art, a Play that never ended...it just turned into a story that everyone loved to listen too with all of their ears, and just a little bit of heart! What imagination could do with some paint brushes and a sheet of Blank Paper...

When the paint brush hangs to dry, we were lying on our backs face to the sky Imagining not when or why, but how, and where the sky ended...for the clouds give it the faint appearance of being invincible!

When i am invincible, I am in your arms, and we are dreaming! Stories of unfathomable truths, where ears don't exist, and hearts are all that matter! Letting go of all the chatter, so we can just see, and be, and breath! In the landscapes that take us to the worlds where we are already together, and I am wrapped in your arms, in a blanket that never ended, just began again....I begin where your shirt lifts off, and our skin becomes apart of the heart beat that we can hear, with little ears...but a million hearts! We are just a story...that never ended, but became another story <3

Lifelike Window

2011-05-19T04:58:00.002-07:00

Love came through the window,

as life poured through the door

Webs of sweet conspiracy swept me off the floor

The air smelled of the Freedoms, we all would die for

Love, Laska, Liebe, L'amour, Amor

Ocean Taking over Shore

Love became a Window

A Portal, through which to See

Life Became Immortal

A drink of which we breathe

I saw you first as Fire

Light inside my Dreams

As I became the Wind

Life, and Love pursued me

Love me, like a Window

Watch the Earth and all Life Grow

Be still with me as the clouds move slow

Have faith that nothing can stay the same

What you know, is only what you know

Always Love remains, So love we have became

Thunder falling for the Rain

We are watching through the Window

The Earth Make Life

a little me, a little you

2011-05-19T04:58:00.001-07:00

Come closer, I want you near

For our bodies to be skin to skin

Our Hearts will beat like lightning

Our Souls will weep the rain

Our Life will light the fires

Our Love will guide the way

My hand and your hand

While we sleep, while we dream

manifesting Universe, Our Destinies

The Stars, for us they shine!

SO let us dance outside of memory

With your hand, inside of mine!

Celebrate and Laugh, at the sillyness of time!

Underneath sweet moonlight

Before you go to sleep

I will sing to you a love song

and bring to you sweet peace

Your heart is in My Garden,

Your Love fills every seed...

with Joy, Courage, Love, and Innocent Belief <3

Mind Meets Body

2011-05-01T16:47:00.000-07:00

I am not mind, I am body: Woman, Mother, Lover

I cry tears with the eyes of my womb

But I feel it in my Heart, and It's Soul

I Breath and I Bleed in every fiber of my being

Won't you listen, Don't you feel it?

I have a Mind, But I am in My Body

Alive while I die, Asleep while I'm awake

I live my fears, while I am sleeping

So they can't take me while I'm awake

I'm wide awake even while I'm dreaming

I am not Mind I am Body!

No More a child... a Woman, not yet a mother

I can love you though you're not my lover

I can Hide, but I'd rather seek

I am not mild, tame or Meek

Not for the Faint of Heart nor the Wicked, or Weak

I am Kind, I am Wisdom, I am Truth!

I give Love that is Maddening, and True!

Filled with Reds and Violets, and Blues!

The Deep, and Passion filled Hues...

Lightning Touching Sky You Will Find...

While the Body, is meeting the Mind

And the Chaos that will, then Ensue

Is the beginning of all that is New.

Merriest Ostara!

This Our Planet

2011-04-12T09:21:00.000-07:00

Here Is The World! She should be given freely!
A place where All came to meet their Needs:
Give full reign to your Dreams, Be open at every seam
At every seam there is a Seed
In the Seeds, lie the Truth of Belief
What you Believe will Always be Growing
Every Seed we plant does its Sowing
The Universe sees what Earth is showing
The Darkness and The Light are all Knowing
For in our Dreams, are the Depth of our Shadows
Or the Lustre of what we are made of!
The greatness we give to Each other
When treated All, as Sister, as Brother
we are all Fathers and Mothers
Earth Mother, Sky Father!
Remind us, that we are all as One!
How the Earth, always needed her Sun
How the Water, always needed the Moon
We have been together for Always
Christian, Muslim, Catholic, Jew.

When I Love you

2011-04-09T21:06:00.001-07:00

When I love you, it is Freedom

a Dance away from the brightest of stars

The Universe, as one, together!

The only spirit who could ever know

your Sadnesses and Tears

I am your Hopes, your Dreams, your Fears.

When I love you, my body sweats

My heart breaks, The World shakes

....and I'm awake

When I love you the thunder rolls,

The Lightning strikes my very Soul

I will never forget cold mornings...hot nights

Warm Glances, and Electric Lights

Love on fire, burns juuuust right

For you, for my rage, my passion I fight

But I refuse to fight the battles

no one ever wins

When I love you I'm the best I've ever been

The things I haven't seen!

The measures I have to meet

Pleasure to meet you, I am sincere

I want you close, but I need you near

When the wind no longer carries your name

I'll still crave you all the same.

Namaste

2011-03-18T11:16:00.001-07:00

I am, I wait...I sit, I watch

I am life come into breath

I am sun, I am moon

Into Summer, from Spring

Into Winter, I Fall

I am light, I am darkness

I am now, I am memory

I am Love, I feel Hate

I am Air, I breath Fire

I am Water, I am Earth

I am Space, I am Time

I am Death, I am Birth

I am Trees, I am Rain

I am pleasure, I am Pain

I am Light so give me Love

Give me Trees, Give me Rain

We are Love, To love is to hate

Take these memories now

shake your darkness

Speak with Fire, be worthy of Air

You Give me Space, and I'll take my Time

Enjoying My pleasure filled Pains

For I am not dead, in life I Rebirth

When Summer time Fell,

and Death Led to Spring

I could see what my rebirth would bring.

Life After Death

2011-01-26T18:27:00.000-08:00

Water in my hair, turns roots to Snakes

the Earth planted deep, in my body

Sweet, Sultry... Seducing, Seduction

Seeds, planted firm in Her Earth

Thoughts are where we give Birth

Air breathing Fire, Turns Snakes to Ashes

The Earth taking life, to make more Earth

Death, Deliver, Destroy, Destroyed

Fire burning warm in your Hearth

For every death, another gives Birth

Earth, Reached for Air, to make Water

Fire was the first of beating Hearts

Life, Soul, Breath...Skin

Life, and Our precious Mother Earth

Granting us death, but giving us Birth

For we, are the children of Gods

2011-01-24T20:09:00.000-08:00

Join the rivers of water our sons

Play in the waters so deep

Join in the dancing, and laughter our sons

Dance, until called to sleep

Dance on the hills of grass, sweet daughter

Sing to the Mountainous sky

Sing with joy to The Air kind Daughter

for the souls of the tears that are cried

Search for truest truths My Sons and Our daughters

Wander Darkness with Light in your midst

Seek only Love My sons and Our daughters

For love, is the Only reason!

...and Love is your only Wish.

Dreams of Forever

2011-01-19T06:34:00.003-08:00

Stay here, my heart is right here

my mind is clear with wonderment

Innocent words, that your mouth will yearn to whisper

giving my skin the answer I've always yearned to hear

I fear but sweet ungrounding as our lips draw near...

and I am wishing for you to stop, and hold my hand

Then you'll touch my face...and say, lets just wait:

til the moon shines high above the river

where my lips you will taste, no skin will be wasted

As the Sun gives birth to Blue Sky

you'll play with my hair, kiss my sleepy eyes

My soul, will shudder, then sigh...

This will be our souls, meeting Eye to Eye.

Dear Mama

2011-01-19T06:34:00.001-08:00

Dear Mama you gave birth to a dreamer

for this lifetime, a web weaver who has nothing left to lose.

Dearest mama, I'm a lone believer, an over under-achiever

A hangman with his own noose

Mama! The stories I can tell

I place them all under spells:all the ones they choose

Dear mama, my thirst goes yet unquelled

Even as my ego starts to melt

I still got the blues...

mama I got wanderin' shoes

but darkness, always finds me alone

no matter how far or how long I roam

Mama, darkness is always waitin',

when I finally come home.

Stoned Clouds

2010-12-06T10:16:00.002-08:00

Once I believed that my mind was opened,

a canvas without paint, a road with NO signs, but quaint...

but I'm no Saint, I wandered off the beaten path-with no map, and no cash.

I was awake, but a lonely traveler with nothing but my thoughts, and my own GOD blessed Mistakes:

A wanderer with no home need's to up the stakes

staying in one place long enough to keep a friend, Hearts will mend my friend, Hearts always Mend.

Together we rode the downside, the Upside, and the Upside Down became a part of our feet!

Cause wherever we meet, we awaken the streets with dance, lined with Romance:

Where no chance, is just One Chance-to make it all so much better.

like an empty road with nothing but stoned clouds and some wind to knock them over

"A tree, makes the Breeze!" I told her...don't cry, not when I've got a shoulder!

ease, your way into death, where we can finally rest, and just BE

Like Wind in Open Seas <3

Self Love

2010-12-06T10:16:00.001-08:00

Dreams take skin form leave breath with lips and silent devotions

the sweetest words are healing, leads to kneeling and life becomes so simple once we become humbled

by the very nature which might or could consume us,

a baffling contradiction, an addiction, a need...like water to a seed

the Sun on lake shores warms her more then a thousand fires

a million desires like lightning storms, the WIND and Rain love comes with pain, candle flames...

Moon against silken sky, with hands, and open windows, after sunset we will fly into the sunrise

like a righteous band of angels, posing as the devils we keep in our mind, Which we can let go, as soon as we find, the path to self discovery.

Take time for the Moon

2010-11-17T06:00:00.000-08:00

The Moon, she’s cooing to starlight and candlelight

Caressing the Silken sky with the Aura of her Eyes

Bless The True Lovers who live to love, and never Die

Cry for those who desire, but never need Weep for those lost to broken Dreams

Mourn for the souls of Blackened Seeds

Rejoice for the child who still believes!

Magic is not thought, it is deed

Life flowing like wine, from you to me

The Moon she coos, she whispers...To the sky, which is her loving Mirror

Embrace Her silver like winter

Then Dance, Play, and Sing to her <3

A Story

2010-11-17T05:58:00.000-08:00

A Story Begins, carried on the Wind

sent for by the Ocean, but started in the Sky

the ever Eternal Eye, A gift, from an Ever Eternal God

A good laugh, A GRAND cry

Sound before the Echo

like words to a beautiful song

notes hanging from the Stars

Illuminated by the Moon

Exalted, by the Sun sings a lively Tune

Awaken! True, my heart

into Life, still but a dream

Manifest a Destiny, close but still unseen

Spirit of the Waterfall too pure to not believe

Soul Inside this Unicorn, the Lion, he did Breath.

Freedom

2010-09-09T15:44:00.001-07:00

Take this breath from me, It was given to me

If I can't live through each day

Time dances by so freely then dances away

Quickly, like lightning, fireflies...fly away

Caressing, Crashing, Shore upon Wave

Id rather Die, then Die away

then to keep this all within and let it decay

an empty body, can be given away

Short of empathy, we are dead and depraved

without life, we are bodies in graves

I'd rather die, then not play

I'd rather cry tomorrow, for the things I do today

I'd rather love, and die of heartbreak

then let my soul waste

like the air that gives the breeze

Like the breeze that feeds the Fire

Like the Water feeds the Earth

Like Love, gives way to Life

and Death gives way to Rebirth

Love outside the chains

2010-09-09T15:41:00.000-07:00

I see that love is not skill

tis but chance

We choose what we do,

in this dance

Do not blind yourselves

with images of romance

Skip to kissing,

before first holding hands

I love you for you,

but I expect you to change

I love you but...

sounds a little strange

I'll love only you

if I can keep you in chains

Bound up by my Devotion

Emotions become deranged

You inside my cage

On trial, center stage...

Passion behind heartbreak

quickly becomes rage: A very potent Mirror

the truth beyond the mask

What we need, we all desire

to Love, to Live, to Laugh

To have every question answered

like we didn't need to ask

Understand why things happen,

then leave them in the past

Pain is only sorrow, when it comes, it never lasts

Love because you have to

because it always, comes right back

Five Thoughts

2010-07-25T15:33:00.001-07:00

Consider all your options
Weigh every decision you make
Spend Five thoughts BEFORE
every action you take
Look towards every fork in the road
Like it could lead you home
Take every turn, if just to follow your nose
to live, to Love, to learn...to laugh, to Love, to Grow
Gather up your apples, climbing IN the Trees
Experience the love of the earth through it's breeze
The wind is a song, that sings on its own
like the waves, on the shores of seas still unknown.
Be still inside your shadows
Meditate, Breath, Dream
For each and every Darkness
Is one WE ALL have seen
To Love, is retribution
The most innocent of Truths
Could Burn and Scar should it so choose
Or it can Heal, Inspire and Soothe...take away the Blues
Life is the justice we all seek,
We are all made equal by our Stomachs, our Hearts and our Feet
Then We are all Made God's
As the Strong Defend the Truth, The Weary, The Meek
We are given our Wings
by loving the Foolish, the Mean, the Weak...
By thinking about our words
Before We choose to Speak...

Miss you like SUmmer

2010-07-20T13:50:00.001-07:00

I miss you like summer when its gone
like a thousand summer rains
Lightning striking at dawn
still isn't quite the same
I crawled into fall,
bearing the bruises of his pain
blood hot with Aching,
mind rampant with shame
Life is in the making, tears never cried in Vain
My soul was for the taking...
Until the day I spoke your Name
My Body yearns my Soul weeps
In the cold death, of winter's sleep
You chased away my grief
The heat of your fire, was my reprieve
In the heat of need, I learned to breath
For you, I learned to bleed
Without fear, I conquer defeat
My Body trembles, my Eyes Weep
my Soul is yours to Keep
In My dreams, I am awake
Still in my dreams I'm yours to take
Even while I'm here, I ache
For the sounds that your heart makes
Loving you too much was never my mistake
My body still trembles, my soul still shakes
Because I miss you like summer when it's gone
your like a thousand summer rains
Lightning striking right at dawn, will never be the same....

Says the Jester

2010-06-09T19:16:00.001-07:00

I've been away...lost on this path
be that as it may, for reason I laugh
While I skip, I wander to play
I cry about the past, at least once a day
Misery wont last, where sadness cant stay
Happiness comes fast, love will always fade
I am right where I sat, All the time for delays.
As it reaches Shadows, the Sun will mourn
Tis time, for lonesome Death
The Moon becomes forlorn
As Morning takes her first breath
Like Father who condemns and scorns
And Mother holds you to her Breast
Children of the Universe...Adored
Think, Grow, Love...Let nature do the rest
Look for light inside Every Door
Remain True, that is your test.

This is my Serene

2010-06-09T19:15:00.000-07:00

she caresses me, the rain
the thunder is my heartbeat
This Mirror, my foe, is vain
broken glass lies at my feet
Red with blood these stains
Found inside Deceit
where the wasteland still remains
Amidst my own self defeat
Echoes remain remnants of past
Whispers of forsaken Dreams
Awaken and Rise Again and Atlast
The Future lies still unseen
As an ever expanding Vast
which is ALWAYS closer then it seems
Under Fire, Brimstone, Ash
Where Soul becomes clean
This is my Serene.

Dance with Chance

2010-05-25T13:12:00.000-07:00

And then the Sun broke free
Excuse me... I saw you standing
Swaying to the blackest of Blues
I stood suddenly reminded
of the Tuesdays Gone Tune
Should I remain, Standing on the Hour to Decide
Or Take this moment through the roof
Forget the fear, remember Pride
when your trying not to look
At the stars inside his eyes
Which forget you to make sense
Leave the details to the sky...
Leave some room for suspense
Neither confirm, nor deny

While you stood next to me
I argued every sensibility
Until all I could do was Sway
to the sounds of electric kind of music
The kind that Made my Veins Want to bleed
I don't need To live, I live Because I want too
My Dreams where I believe
Beyond the guise of defeat

Sway to Sounds that take your Soul Away
leave a moment for chance
from now until the end of days
Dance within this Dance
Take ONE real breath within Millions
Taste it slow, just like romance
from now until the end of days
Dance within each Dance

Fireflies

2010-05-14T20:57:00.000-07:00

Your Electricity
Tantalizing my skin
Vague Complexities
Anchored Deep within
Simplest of Simplicities
no end cannot begin...
An artist, and his Poet
A soul, and his Twin
A dreamer and its whim
The stars inside his skies
light forever dancing upon a lovers Eyes
Adoration shining through a thin film of desguise
after a Longing's sweet Touch
The Truth shan't be Denied
Denial shan't be enough
TRUE Love never Dies
Though it's almost always Rough
and You'll always make her cry
but she'll pretend that she's tough
When you hear her laugh then sigh,
it's cause she loves you too much
Your the lightning to her rain...
Butterflies, Fireflies and such...
the blood beneath the veins
the beating of her heart
Unlock doors romantic poet!
Inspire the artists Work of Art.

Become like Human: a metal sonnet

2010-05-08T14:31:00.001-07:00

Through Skin, Demon Exits Grave
Too search for his mortally eternal organs
These, He'll have to take
However violent, gory or horrid
To die is to be saved
However Grim, Macabre, or Morbid
These are the roads we've paved

I fear you'll die of STD
do I'll take your ovaries
i fear you've gone insance
let me take your brain
you've become quite vain
so give me both your eyes
I'm afraid I'll take your tongue
For having told such lies
i'll take your bleeding heart
Cause I've never heard you cry

Alone, Vexed and Haunted
We must face the night
With Love, we are taunted
Yet Hate is how we fight
If love was what you wanted
then love with all your might
Wish upon your wishes
upon the heavens starlight
dancing upon those demons, angel kiss
scattered in passions dreams
serenity and sweeeeet bliss
Chaos, the sorely missed.

As Demon finds his Heart
no you won't tell them apart
Time and Space, Near or Far
scar becomes like scar
Each their own work of art

I fear you'll die of STD
do I'll take your ovaries
i fear you've gone insance
let me take your brain
you've become quite vain
so give me both your eyes
I'm afraid I'll take your tongue
For having told such lies
i'll take your bleeding heart
Cause I've never heard you cry

At the Queens request

2010-05-08T14:30:00.001-07:00

Follow the Mind inside the Flesh
The Truth Becomes Voice
When the Body Rests
It must be your own Choice
...At The King's Request

Lonesome is Death
Dying like the seasons
At the King's Request
Self Inflicted treason

Come take off a Load
Let go of what you Fear
Don't Betray your own Soul
Life becomes very clear
::We all travel different Roads
All we hold Dear,
Must Live, Breath, and Grow

Lonesome is Sweet Death
Dying with the Seasons
At the Queen's Request
Self Inflicted Reason
Love the only Test
Love without Treason
A Strong Heart in Her Breast
For I Can Be One
Until I Eternally Rest

Silver lining

2010-05-08T14:29:00.000-07:00

As Rainbows sometimes follow rain
a sign, from this our earth
If Nothing is ventured, nothing is gained
To survive, one must learn to endure
Our Shadows, then our fear, and then our pain
no beginning, nor end to this search
Fear and Love can both drive us insane
Tell me which master you serve
This crazy old fool may be deranged
but you must heed his nonsensical words
For the one who is willing to be hanged
is the one whose heart, is most pure.

The Discovery of Happenstance

2010-04-25T16:37:00.001-07:00

A warm kiss of sunshine that burns like fires touch
A cool and gently breeze, to say i wish you well
Rain, Thunder,lightning...fireflies and such
Lovers teasing with no reason nor the time to rush
Merciful Ride through open seas, too much being never enough
Where fairy-tales and truth be told's
are all their ever were
A Dream Within a Dream, A little hidden, a tad obscured
Fancy Free's,Do you believe's...Uncertainy's and Unsure's
Mysteries and Hypothesis, Playful and Demure
There always was, But has never Been...
Not now, Not ever, Not now, not then
What started out forever has always been ending
For now, and forever after...time and time again
Gone was the time, Gone with the Wind
The end the beginning, the beginning the end...
A dance on the Ocean, first began in the sand
Which started out as rocks, which first began as land
Magic coming from the Isle of I Know I Can
One can ask one's questions, one cannot make demands
Love the simple action, of taking another's hand
Dancing real slow, without the King or his band
Chasing Fairy-Tales giving wings to chance
FireFlies in Firelight, Enflame the angst of Romance
Suicidal Symphonies...Dancing, if only to dance
Love ignores not Happenstance, knowing Death comes to any, every and all Miserable and life changing Circumstance...

Searching Inward

2010-04-18T09:37:00.001-07:00

Mutual Understanding, leads to Mutual Respect
Liberation from the land of "I Expect"
Sharpened senses born of a little Intellect
Followed by moments of constructive Introspect
A little of self love, goes a long way
First it's time to work, and then it's time to play
There is time to waste, but no time for Charades
Life's not always chaos, though in constant Disarray
Live inside each moment, like today's your first Day
Looking back at pictures, do you remember what you learned?
How you felt each Sorrow, each scar was earned
Every time you love, fear not being burned
Listen to your passion, Let your linger Yearn
Do so because you need to, learn to share your soul
Remember that two parts, always make the whole
Feminine meeting masculine, it matters not the role
consult your Mind AND THEN Heart, then do as you're told.
Both must work together, because they equally exist
With our Dreaming Minds, we Make our EVERY Wish
As our Mind Believes, Our Hearts will find our Bliss.

Gray Rainbows

2010-04-16T19:51:00.000-07:00

Raindrops cleanse my wounds
take and make me whole
change my point of view
not a moment too soon
take apart my tragedy
I want to see the moon
In the midst of travesty
Where I find my empathy
I am not alone
but alone, on this road, I walk
I will wander, I may roam
Until I find my way home
Here is where they know me
Here, where love won't change
Just existing simply
beyond what you can see
Stories in the making
Sad, Angry, Silly
Giving, and then taking
True, is not forsaken
Truth seen as an Action
The Cause before Reaction
More then satisfaction
My spirit Satisfied
From skin, to deep within
From my heart to my eyes
Cleanse my Spirit Raindrops
Wash away disguise
Give to me the Sunshine
Give to me clear skies
Help me share the rainbows
I so Desperately try to hide.

Misery Loves company

2010-04-15T16:18:00.001-07:00

Abandon all Hope
satisfied and empty
stay lost child, follow open sea
revel in your hate for fake humanity
There will be no savior
we were left bereft
choking on the mess we made
on Satan's doorstep
Child dream of nothing
In darkness you've slept
No room for despair
In the tears that you've wept
Life leads to nowhere
but to uncertainty then death
Noose above the chair: Sunrise, and eternal rest
Follow me to damnation, Heaven's rejects
Speak Now noble villain!
Tell stories made of lies!
Giving nightmares to the children
SO they won't be suprised
All will be surrendered
to the worthiest of Foes
Be not rendered weary
For you have always known
Abstract is Humanity
Real, our fears have grown
False is reality, the Wretched we've been show
for this whole life, we've been given
to reap what we have sewn.

Drowning in the Holy Land

2010-04-15T12:21:00.000-07:00

Trade a solemn nothing
for a face that is forlorn
broken and abused
beaten and misused
give the gift of apathy
for a long stemmed black rose
Songs of melancholy
drift flightless in air
A thousand thoughts of happiness
going nowhere, but here.
Drifting by...a lullaby
of promises true, and sorrow
Give me life, but give me death
By the dawn of false tomorrow
Presence of mind, so ill at ease
Chased away with lies
pushed away with disease
We the animated, are the walking dead
Wide awake, and half asleep
Falling pray to sadness
but forgetting how to weep
Wretched and NON colored
Rotted, full of shame
Who am I? Who are you?
There is nothing in a name.
I know where I am standing
In quicksand...and wood glue
Sinking like the rest of them...
In this land of red white and blue.

Parley!

2010-04-12T20:12:00.001-07:00

The battles being waged
have already been won
We inherited this, OUR cage
Our time has just begun
Mind reaches beyond age
LIFE was set in motion
This CANNOT be undone
the waves, ONE with the ocean
the Sky, One with the Sun
the Body, One with Emotion
When its over, is it really done?
For every cause there is an action
What gives you hope in desire is it satisfaction?

Life is seen
As a boundary is crossed
A day is never wasted
the best days lost
are lying warm in Bed
Safe from winters frost
Cold Calm inside your head
while the World goes Insane
Scared too death of Death
To ride the Crazy Train
To the place of eternal rest
Don't you see while Life is spent,
love is always gained
Love and adoration can only be given away
Love remains, though love is pain
Blood Red and Never Gray
Too Loud to ever Fade
Anxiously we await the dawn of New Day
Fear will not dissuade us, nor will death...nor Decay.
For we demand retribution!
Or if you will...Parley.

Soul's serentiy

2010-03-31T13:23:00.000-07:00

Fingertips grasp beating hearts,
Raging Fire lies unseen
Skin's refusal to part
Under warmth of moonbeam
Making Love the Art
of Soul's Awakening
Kiss the Deepest Secrets
They Yearn for Reckoning
In Moments...No Regret
Magic cannot Hide
Electric much like Lightning
Wild as the Tide
Ride those Waves til calm
Passion Bides us Time
The taste of salty skin
Warm, Moist...Wet
Dancing on the Walls
Shadow's Silhouette
As Bodies Intertwine
Reality We Forget
If only for this moment
No Lies and No regrets
Please Dawn, come slowly
While soul, love does possess
Please Dawn, come slowly
Like a Lover's Warm caress
Please Dawn Come slowly
I pray as I undress
All night... reverent worship
Sweet Lover's Prowess
As stars line the sky
Body, Soul, and Mind
As sun touches sky
Love becomes unkind
I remember your eyes
Fall to Mine
Soul's Align
Your body, my shrine
Still warmed by obsession
and the strength of your possession
Forever warmed from within
By Fire, again, and again
Strength and Devotion
Only Hearts know
Surely to be savored while it grows
Only for this moment, fear is over thrown
When daylight comes all becomes unknown
But after nightfall, I become enthralled.

Man behind the Mirror

2010-03-29T21:37:00.001-07:00

Deep aching, a longing for what? I am unclear
I search for a meaning to fill this dull void
Love comes close enough to whisper in my ear
but there is no satisfaction
My spirit gleans just enough to get by
But I still look towards the shadows
I still look towards the sky
Why am I here, am I grounded by what I see with my eyes?
This place that I have made which is so lonely
I've come to hate...to despise
So I make myself my one and only, and I'm off to my demise
It's in the night you hear my wishes
it's in the night you hear my tears
Our dreams are Angel's kisses...shadowed by the devil and his fears
For each dream we lose...we lose it to the mirrors
the devil in yourself takes away your spirit
Refuse to see within, you're refusing to go near it
Face the man you hate, do it unafraid
the demons that you know, are demons that you've made
When all your life fails your debts finally been paid
This life we do not owe, hardships do not dissipate
face them like a man, Face the Man you hate
I shake in my skin, with the power of my sadness
With the thoughts that wrack my brain...
Might be nonsense could be madness
Might be true though it sounds insane...
Our lives were never meant to be tragic
We were not meant to live in pain, we created our own misery...we created our own bane
Whether you blieve or not, there exists sweet magic
We're not hell bound it's not science or arithmetic
Nor religion, but more like pure sound...a heartbeat
When it's slow or even when its faster,
it stays the same, just one product of matter
We are not of land...nor of noble beasts wild nor tamed
...but from the universe itself, In full glory we are proclaimed
The Son's and Daughter's of Gods we remain
Lead us into Battle, Those without a Name
Lead us into into death as free men, without shame
Let us play til death for the crown of this Domain.

Theories of Relativity

2010-03-29T07:08:00.001-07:00

Inside of a color
is a technimagical scheme
of a dance, to a door...which leads to another door,
onto a different screen, of a dream from once before
A place you have more then seen...
But felt with every ounce of your being
A part of your soul is this picture
that went far too quickly
This is only a moment in reality:
Stare silently at this frame
A riddle in this Labyrinth of games
Dance with the devils, ye are deranged
Or Come OUT! Knight, as Dragon
King of your domain.
Life lying in moments of remnants, far past
Those left behind, always come in last
Bury yourself in thoughts, you yourself have cast
Remember: Life lies in moments
They always hurt, this never lasts
Silver lines the sunset...
Sunrise always comes too fast
Time is never long enough, but always far and vast.
As the moon glows before the dawn of the Sun's earthly Ray
As history has shown, life can change: in one day
Change all we've ever known, without cause or delay
Silver lines each cloud, as in our dreams we pray
As king is overthrown Sunlight Dies again
This we can count on, this has always been
Incapable of Fear now, we refuse to cower
Strength, Love and Truth Our gifts inside this hour
Our life no longer our bane
Kings fall from noble towers, as we become less deranged.

laughing matter

2010-03-25T05:08:00.001-07:00

Laughing Matter
..Centrifical Force
keeps me on my knees
If I veer off course
Will I become diseased?
If I don't pray to your source (or beg him, or plead)
To give me remorse
for being this gypsy
This life I lead
where I am in command
i will have my reprieve
by the strength of my own hand
I won't live enslaved
I will Die free

Listen to the wind change
As time catches up
Listen to the Earth rage
as we fuck it all up
live inside your cage
or motherfucker stand up
Let us weigh YOUR sins
Who is more corrupt?
Come out, or we'll kick the door in
you need to give up
You can never win
This time we've had enough
Open up, we're coming in
I hope you like it rough
you will never win, you need to give up

Wanna fuck me in my asshole?
Why don't you kiss me first
TAKE me out to dinner
maybe quench my thirst
Tell me that you love me
before you bury me in dirt
Tell me Jesus loves me
before you make it hurt
Treat me like your chew toy
I give you what you need
then you give me sadness
and call it my disease
No there's nothing wrong with this world
There's nothing wrong at all
Everything's wrong with me
God knows I love to crawl
Only hate and grief fill the blackest depths of sadness
Because I am diseased
I am filled with madness
Although I've done no horrible deeds
My life is only tragic
How is this reality
If we were made of magic?
Everything there after
A fucked kinda nightmare
The only for sure cure is laughter
and to always be aware
Your soul is what they're after
Give not into your despair
The only cure for sadness
Is a bout of evil laughter.

The Epic Fall into Damnation (sludge)

2010-03-19T13:17:00.001-07:00

These are just memories
of once read over lines
Stories over pages
and Pages full of Lies
Pictures of Nightmares
All of your design
A moment of A Thought
too many glasses of wine
You might have thought of something
It could have been divine
While maybe you're a genius
you've lost your only mind

So will you stay sorry
for what you've gone and done
Will you say your sorry
for all you've gone and done
Will you forever be sorry
for what was here, and then gone?

Drift in and out of real world
you become apart of what's lost
To find yourself again
There's going to be a cost
On this road to nowhere
hearts cover in frost
alone, you walk in darkness
alone you carry your cross

So will you stay sorrry
for what you've gone and done
Will you say your sorry
For all you've gone and done
Will you be forever sorry
for what was there and then gone
Or will you stand in your glory
After the battles been won
Stand up with your ax
Whose got the biggest guns?

::note::
Insanity is defined as doing the same things over and over, expecting different results::

The Sound of Eternal Silence

2010-03-15T08:48:00.001-07:00

The eternal sounds of silence
Brings peace to my ears
To know someday ill rest forever
calms my troubled fears
Chance lies in moment
as you lie unaware
A door closes, another one opens
Whether wanted, or fair
Any road you travel, leads to anywhere
Keep walking Lost Prophet
you're already there

Happiness is on the road of lesser travel
as you stop fearing the the unsure
your noose will unravel
as you touch ground
be grateful for the gravel
as it soaks up the rain
which is swallowed by the earth
Give to her your pain, she takes it and gives birth
The life inside your veins
is the life for which you search
As the moon dies, the sun will rise
leaving shadows far behind
bring light to the hell that dominates your mind
Life the unforgotten treasure
seek, and ye shall find
Under Sun, Moon, and Stars the omniscient sign
The proof of where we're going, Truth Divine
Truth, your truest friend
Forever and again...
Always beyond Matter, from now until the end
Beyond eternal silence
Lies what is heaven Sent.

God Bless the Children

2010-03-15T08:32:00.002-07:00

Forge the road
Death lies up ahead
sentenced the same, as every borne child
Cry sweet babe, mamas not coming back
she left for high town
fell between the cracks
of this world left for hell
where nothing means the same
Will you fall victim, desolate warrior?
drifting towards empty
face your monsters
serve no man
you are your own
on your own you stand
blind to the guardian
you, your own saint
listen or be sheltered
choose your own fate
Lay in wastee wil
or stitch your broken soul
MY dying bride
is the hell inside this hole
silence your breathing
taste the way you think
my bloody whore
saint fucking sinners
Raping your forlorn spirit
then they leave you in the cold
Come to me my child
I will steal your breath
have faith in nothing
but loneliness and death
Fear loving children
I will kill your hope
feeding to your veins
hate feels like dope
seer your innocent brain
spreads like wild fire
driving man insane
Daddy was a liar
Mama was a whore
Baby had to die, to even up the score
all your life you ask
Why? What for?
Because babies become liars..and babies become whores.

Melancholy Song

2010-03-15T08:32:00.001-07:00

Melancholy Song
..Break the silence
mind inside the dream
a taste of sweet violence
Hate becomes pristine
Dominate and Violate
Bleed my soul clean
In my open casket, i will lie serene

Dancing within sorrow
lost inside black eyes
before I wake tomorrow
show me open skies
looking straight to dawn
along the broken road
we sing a somber song
that only hell would know
if the path we take is wrong
its still the path we chose
He who once was bishop, now becomes the pawn
reveling in the sadness
in this melancholy song

In this the witching hour
The worst of demons hide
We give to them their power
By feeding ourselves lies
In our weakened state we cower
then fall to our demise
Upon our noble tower
Tears fall from the sky
Shower me in blood, innocence has died

Give to me TRUE slumber
Before the sunrise
give to me the moon,
as the sun dies
Give to me, sweet universe, open eyes...
the path of True Truth, takes my disguise
If I never wake
was I always fast asleep?
And if my soul you take,
was it ever mine to keep?
If I dream these demons
that make the angels weep
kill me now
Kill me while I sleep

I live right now

2010-03-09T16:54:00.000-08:00

The crow calls overhead
as the Sun warms my skin
I could do anything, so I do nothing instead
I wait for peace to come from within
I think "I am not body" inside my head
My thoughts are where chaos begins
My reality lies in all my mind says
These are my lessons, these are my sins
If I didnt try to get me, I might as well be dead
Why do I choose? Is it ever my choice?
If my life is chosen for me,
why do I have this voice?
If this is my destiny, am I to rejoice?
Can I pick my own ending
with dignity and poise?
Is this sound in my mind just static, just noise?
This treasure I was lucky to find
and even luckier to enjoy
Like a Door, A Miracle, a Sign
This miraculous box of toys
I must share, even if its just mine
Ill show a few girls, a few of the boys
That we are all children of the divine
So Summon your strength from your hate
with love, this is how your heart plays
Without Joy, we become restless and hollow
this sadness will always stay
the emptiness always follows
We are measured by our shades of gray
which can drown us in fear of tomorrow
While blackness will fade away
It can never take away our sorrow
Our hatred it won't dissuade
and we find ourselves in misery
For the hearts that we betray
all we will ever be is memory
because of the truths that we evade
History becomes Mockery
Like the religiously destructive crusades
There will be no victory
While the Gods are led astray
Chivalry is NOT dead
Out of Fairy Tales its made
the monsters under your bed
Are the way, the truth, and the light.
the Fire that never fades
The Stars that shine at night
The Truth will ALWAYS pervade
As long as its love for which we fight.

know thine enemy

2010-03-06T16:05:00.001-08:00

Vagrant and solemn
Myself for Always
Home is nowhere
So far and so few away
This may not be fair
But I'm here anyways
Here and not there is the story nowadays
While I am led astray
By the world created FOR me
I'll have my fucking say
Or you will fucking bleed.
My soul I can't betray
OUR strength is OUR Unity

Give me my fucking life back
Give us everything we need
We are not enslaved
We'll fight for our Liberty
Before I fucking rage
I'll offer you civility
before I eat your fucking brains
after I condemn you for hypocrisy
Treat you like you're insane
A thorny fucking crown
For the Leaders of the Vain:

You have until sundown
After midnight we pull out our tricks
Know thine enemy
six six six
Keep the devil close
He's a tricky little prick
Every girl knows, he's got the biggest dick
Gut him from below
taste the wounds you inflict
cause every man knows
You like it really sick
when you climb deep within
the black depths of the beast
Use their rules against them
enjoy your bloody feast
Blame it all on "sin"
On death and Disease
Rape the Beast Withing
Bring her to his knees.

Give me my fucking life back
Give me everything I need
We are not enslaved
We'll fight for Liberty
Before I fucking rage
I'll offer you civility
before I eat your fucking brains
after I condemn you for hypocrisy
and label you insane
make you live for nothing
which is everything in vain
Then you'll fucking tell me
whose the one to blame
Let me loose upon this monster
Say my True Name.

smoke and mirrors

2010-03-02T16:15:00.001-08:00

This is just sadness, It can't eat my bones
A little taste of madness, in this realm of the unknown
Finding true happiness, is reaping what you sow
Watching this grand scheme, which moves so very slow...
this dream within a dream where we watch ourselves grow
Where we watch ourselves DIE, but we pay to watch the show
Where misery is only tragedy and love is PURe as snow...
Time is just a fairy tale, moving like the wind blows...
silently showing she's there by caressing your hair
Forever, like the stars, that speak our destinies
Which cant be erased by history...and are ever explored like mysteries
Time is a test, not a race...Love is the scar you can't erase
Life is a lesson we all must learn
We all have faced disgrace
Between truth and lies we must discern
learn at your own pace...
Only then can you return, to the ONLY sacred place
Where clocks tick, but never turn, Where Love conquers Hate
Where fire warms, but never burns and light just radiates
Where tears are cried for those not heard
Where reality waits outside,
cause everyone knows reality is more then a little absurd
Like a Comedy...a Broadway Play where we're all judged by our reaction
How we learn to smile in the silliest of fashions
How we only love with the mightiest of passions
How we learn to fly, without being scared of crashing
How we learn to see without using our eyes
How we use the truth, to falsify Disguise
How we read the message, written in the skies.
How will we find magic inside this measuring of years?
With a little luck, a lot of strength, and more then a few tears
Love will lead the way through the land of smoke and mirrors
and I will live all I can live, without the burden of my fears

Black Blues

2010-02-28T21:19:00.001-08:00

To know what you want
know your own mind
Make sure your heart follows
Always close behind
Never should you wallow
In fear of what you'lll find
Seek only Truth
The center of Divine
I will not die, while I still live
This life's my Grand Design
My love pours out like Wine...
This is what my soul needs
This is what i chose
without you is sweet grief
With you, sweet release
It's my hunger I must feed...
To you..forever true
The Lucky...the Fucked...The few
What started out as words
Slowly manifesting into
The deepest of Black Blues
What was once my Shadow
Borne me Anew
These boundaries, that only let me
Show my loyalty to you
I've given in to grounding
To follow my forbidden dreams
For we are slowly growing
Into the Ruler's over Kings
Truly the divinest beings
We are OUR own creators
What I am finally seeing:
To reach for something greater,
We must SEE what's in our hands
See What we have,
Then make OUr Demands
We command the Universe
We command the Stars
we're making our own Stories
and we do it with our hearts
We're taking all the Glory...
Every Battle, VICTORY
and the Fight I see in you...is the fight I FEEL in me
The Belief I have in you...is the Belief you have in me
Separate, as One, turning our dreams to Reality
Fight for Serenity...Know beyond a doubt
YOU are the Warmth Behind my Fire
The NEED behind my Passion...
The Strength of my Desire
The Cause of My Reaction
It's for your life that I plead
That you see what I see...
The God Inside you, is the God inside me
<3

Courage and the Strength to Live it.

2010-02-22T21:28:00.001-08:00

Take the Tallest bridge, over the biggest waters...Sail the darkest seas, Ride next to the storm.
Climb the Tallest Mountain, Tame the Wildest Beast...Fight the biggest dragon, then eat the finest feast...
Wander through the Forrest, Get lost amongst the vine...Build yourself a castle, build yourself a shrine.
Fight your biggest monsters, Revel in their Defeat. Love til Death your women who will Serve you beyond defeat...Make magic work, make it real, make it happen...Believe what you will, what you want, What you Dare? Stand free, stand tall, stand Human after all...fall in love, fall in line, or fall victim...your fear is your disgrace. Follow your dreams, Follow your heart, Follow your mind, they are all their own art...Sing for the birds, Sing for the bees, sing for lover who isn't on his knees...Watch the sky wander...watch the clouds dissipate, Watch time creep by, Forget its there and it will saunter like that perfectly blue sky...
Darkness shelters the stars we all take for granted, hides us from the truth so the truth we must seek... when we find the truth is what we'll see,then we will be freed to live eternally in the place where we know what we're made of...Where love makes anything possible, and music is like the softest kiss...from the Half that you have always missed...Time becomes irrelevant, and life becomes forever <3
I become A demon, You my mighty sword, trapped in a dimension where Earth is only words...but words become vibration...which becomes reality...reality Keeps changing...do you know what that means?

Ode

2010-02-21T08:39:00.001-08:00

I walk into the dim of distance, Not a soul have I found...I hear a sound...an echo for instance... COming from the ground. Here he comes, the devil to take me.. I had taken to a grim Stance...
He offered me no Resistance, and he was Handsome at a glance: It was obviously, his way of talking to me...
Why bring me to, my knees with words? If I'm diseased and I am scorned! Deliver ME to Hell by Sword...I'll not be Mourned! He says I do indeed want your soul...For a few Pennies, OR A Price
I say! You won't use it anyway...so I think, I'll make you pay thrice!
He says: I'm here to make a deal, I got everything that you need!
Baby, what'll it be?
I laugh at him! YOU can't even love me! You ain't never even been nice!
Give it a chance! Did you know I can dance? Will you dance with me tonight?
I can Order the Stars...FOr you, My love... my Heart is history!
I says to him now: I want your throne, I want it with you and as Mine...I need You to let me do as I please...I aml me, We have our own minds. I am my own, and your on your own, until I'm beside our throne.
He says: Anything for you, anytime, any place...For you I'd move time, I'd move earth, I'd move space...If only I'll ever see love upon your face...
I want to see the Sunrise, against the darkest skies...every morning, night is only a disguise. She warms me in her embrace...Reminding me, I am alive...that I can touch, and i can taste...The memory of Life fresh upon my dreams...lying in your arms, where time becomes obscene, no reason to make haste...Just a backdrop of a Scene.
He says: I will give you the moon, I would offer you the Sun, I would offer you the universe, but there is Only One.. Every morning before we sleep, you will have this, of me.
Love me like the Storm, Like Hate and Like Fire so I am satiated by the strength of your Desire
Fight with me, Challenge me...Why Don't you Pique My Ire?
We'll fade away until darkness, Where love is what we will conspire. Where we can Order the Stars, and weed out the Liars...Where every single moment is decided with Chivalry...On the hopes that someday we'll all share our dreams: The Depths of Hell no longer shrouded in mystery...For even darkness needs stars to hold in his Arms, And Satan Needs a Queen, to Show him... his own heart.

Children in the Throne Room

2010-02-19T07:57:00.000-08:00

As I summon earthly slumber
There's a turn of strange events
the things for which I hunger
Fall into sequence
I am not torn asunder
With Strength I will prevent
Them from dragging me under

I will heed the Devil's Call
First I must make him Listen
Get Him Under MY Thrall
In the Blood which he was Christened
In the Beginning we All must fall
To the Earth which is divine
It takes no Strength to End it All
You must Seek what you will Find
You must Heed the Devil's call
To find your Mind
I am not a Sign
I am but a Child
From the One's who Are Divine
The Shadows are where they Peek
To the Blackest parts of thee
THe one's who choose to seek
The Truths that set you free
IN the midst of the tragedies
Which add to her Mysteries
What is knowing Warmth
Without Winter's Storms?
What is Laughter without Misery
To Both you must Conform
to Move past History
YOu were Borne too Die
SO why not breath in Life?
If you are Sorrowed,
Destroy Lies
Your life is Borrowed
Open your eyes!
What will be, Is and will Be
Nothing is Easy

Earth, Water, Fire, Air
Is from what we were Born
We are the rightful Heirs
to this our Earthbound Throne
We have to Ascend the Stairs
But We don't have to Walk alone
The burden is Theirs
who are the Unaware...
That we could do it on our own
We were not disowned
We are the Children of Gods
And we have NEVER walked Alone.

Fairy Tales

2010-02-17T08:17:00.001-08:00

Fairy Tales

This is only the beginning
Let it go, or itl gets worse
there's a saying that goes:
you can't beat a dead horse
Every girl always knows
That we will always want more
Our Love that is our Passion
Is what we'd die for
You are but an image
trapped inside my mind
What I thought I did see
I will never find
I still forget to breath
When you look at me
It might just all be worth it
If your heart was not diseased
You might just believe
in the truth of my convictions
But these are my eyes
and these are my afflictions
I can't and won't disguise
the strength of my addictions
These were my predictions
I knew my destiny
I could feel the sorrow
building up in me
For no apparent reason
I have set my own trap
Could this be treason?
Of life from season to season...
Its not me thats asking
Its my Spirits Heart
While I bask in the Sun
It's tearing me apart
This is now my burden
I am a GOD, I must find my wings
Before the Devil takes everything
I refuse to ever serve him
I'll only reign by his side
forever I will sing
but never will I cry
For what Life will bring
i will live, and I will surely die
as winter follows spring
death becomes my ally
As Sorrow becomes my King
Love becomes my Glory
This becomes the fairy tale
that's writing all my stories...

Douche Baggy Little Baby

2010-02-17T08:16:00.000-08:00

Douche Baggy Little Baby

Come here, sweet boy and tell me you hate me
Ill tell you I love you again
I'll even whisper in your ear
This is not your domain
I'll give you hell, give you love, give you pain
But I love you liek the rain
You crazy fucking Boy
your making me insane!
you bring me so much Joy
Id rather die then hear you cry
But I will end your fucking life
and i'll lay with you until you sleep
You are the angel in which my heart keeps
And if anyone ever hurt you...
I would break their fucking knees
I love you like the summer breeze
You are the child inside of me
Sometimes I hate your fucking guts
you drive me so fucking nuts
But I couldn't live without you
You make gray skies Blue
And I could never live without you
My love's forever True.

The Devil Serves Me Well.

2010-02-14T08:50:00.001-08:00

In Broken Mirrors I see my reflection
In the quiet I still my breath
From these moments I cant run
though I could chase my death
the sun would shine again
So for this time, I must rest
and I must bleed beyond my grief
And this I must confess
I love sweet Misery
and the smell of her sweat

THrough Depths of Hell
YOu will hear my scream!
Alive but not so Well
I'm caught inside my Dreams
My darkness is a spell
thats been cast over me
There will be no reprieve
thats the devil's decree
I must dance all alone
on the brink of insanity

Walk next to the fire
do you know why you were born?
Drowning with desires
that only make you mourn
Cheats, Thieves and Liars
Will have there final morning
Burn the funeral Pyre
As their final warning
From Himself, the Sire
To the eternally scorned
Who will tire but never sleep
cry, but never weep
forever, they will keep
The lies that become them

Through the depths of hell
you will hear them scream
Alive, but not so well
Caught inside your dreams
Darkness is the spell
That's cast over thee
There is no reprieve,
this is the devils decree
we must all dance alone
on this brink of insanity

Solemnest King

2010-02-13T13:19:00.000-08:00

Dance with me
In the black of night
Swaying like the breaze
that's holding me just right
As the sound of music
caresses the twilight
As He's kissing my hands
My tears turn to starlight

In the darkest realms
You become my candle
Guiding me through Hell
through this darkness
in which I dwell
I do more then handle
time will surely tell...
If I am just a servant
then I'll serve you very well

I live a little dangerous
so that I may lose my mind
I'm looking for my heart
So my heart is what I find
Lost in trepidation
Is this servant of time
Suspended animation
Still I walk the line
Discovering that misery
Lies true in the divine

I can only whisper
Until you speak my name
Until you touch my skin
You won't see me change
Life came from within
Never selfish, never vain...
the thunder needing the rain
In the midst of morning
My Strong and Solemnest King...
For the angels I will cry
But it's for you I shall sing...

monsters in my bed

2010-02-11T18:43:00.001-08:00

Turn off all the lights
I'm seeing only Red
Preparing now to fight
the monsters in my bed
I'll not fear the night
Nor the demons in my head
I musnt fear the sorrow
In all that will be said
I am not a victim,
you willl never see me crawl
I was borne a Victor
I Grow stronger as I fall
Im sorry you just missed her?
I'll tell her that you called
She's hanging from the rafters
and crawling up the walls
From now until forever after
She'll be taking no more calls

tell me to and ill watch my tongue
I'll do it the way that I please
Ill be here until I'm done
down upon my knees
Do you really think you've won?
I'm here if only to appease
Do not make me angry
I only aim to please
In fact shut your fucking mouth
you know how to treat a lady?
Upstairs or further down south?
Ill shut up if you make me
Could you maybe make it bleed?
Give it to me daddy...give me what I need

I will watch my tongue?
Ill Do it just the way you please?
Ill smile until you are done
Down upon my knees
Do you feel like you have won?
Do you feel appeased?

The monsters found my bed
so fucking easy
they crawled inside my head
I got a little queasy
I wished that I was dead
but that would be too easy
So I killed him instead
Because he told me I was sleazy...
I stabbed him in his head
because he could not please me.

Bleeds the dungeon

2010-02-07T12:28:00.000-08:00

In this, the darkest of dungeons
I have built my own walls
I will not despair
for I've built them on my own
I dream of a nightmare
From which I bleed
from the eyes in my mind
and which I scream
to be set free
From the lies that hide
Who i could be
I became thoughts
that became my tears
all because I wont hide behind my fears
Ill not be afraid
To live a thousand years
because I know
I understand my heart
and the pain I see
is a part of the biggest part of me
I'm a demon
I'm a saint
I must bleed to bear my seed
But as Just One, I'm all I need
But if truth be told
It's for Love and Truth I plead.
I see to the end
the very last factor
I speak of the last of truths
The highest, possible matter
What it should be, once we're done
But we're still the youngest of Sons
We're the mischievous and rebellious ones
the craftiest and noblest creeps
the kids that brought knives
hoping to stab out your eyes
you see it was all good an fun
Until we made them all Die
then everyones wearing disguises
A grand list of suprises
So you crawl to your dungeon inside
Where black is the best place to hide
Where only I can hear myself screaming
In this darkness, where I am not dreaming
I'll find peace in the realm where i was born
made of sorrow, malice, and scorn
where I was made to discover
I am truly adorned
A god, under her own
The queen to my own throne
And I will learn, i will fight I will bleed
BE this my solemnest creed
I will understand the Hate inside Me

Make a wish

2010-02-05T18:31:00.001-08:00

In the twilight of sweet chaos
as I offer up my dreams
I delve into the unknown
For a taste of the unseen
Amidst the worst of demons
That Lie inside of Me
My skin begins to quiver
Like Death is in my bones
I wait to be delivered
By the hands that are unknown
My destiny surrounds me
as I am reaping what I sow
The more I understand...
the less I think I know
I am just a child
Waiting still to grow
Wishing on every star
That who I am will show
Every tear and every scar
Is a part of who we are
Every thought, becomes reaction
Want becomes satisfaction...
I sit in silence
This is my reprieve
These thoughts aren't my destruction
though they are my disease
I am made of all the things
That I choose to believe
Love, Hate and Jealousy
Fear, Doubt and Grief
As I become Forlorn
Its myself that I see
Veiled in my sorrows
Drowning in Misery
But this is just a mirror
It cant see inside of me
My spirit will not die
From fear or tragedy
I am on my own
Though I am not alone
I will always have Me
To walk along with on my destiny
As past becomes future
and future becomes history
I will find the source of magic
I must fight for Mystery.

I watched Me change

2010-01-29T11:46:00.001-08:00

A veil of distant promises
awaken in me bliss
for a moment I am sure...
But only for a moment...
Am I granted this.
A taste of Grand Illusion
Like the Devils Blackest Witch
She'll strand you in the desert
you'll be drinking your own piss.
For just a bit of Sunshine
You'll lick her fiery lips
For just a taste of water
For just her somber kiss
SO don't give up your everything
To Die inside her midst.
In the dark and dusty grave
I watch her restless limbs
I watch you offer prayers
I hear your broken hymns
I hear you cry your blight
But admit not they're YOUR sins
Your not afraid to fight
But you know not what you'll win...
There are finer things then fairy tales
I find them rather Grim
Like death, like DOOM, like rainclouds...
I love to watch you hate
This is your retribution
You have chosen your own fate
Trapped in institution
Not a moment too late
buried in destitution
Before you turn Irate
You rip out your own heart
Before you self satiate.
When I am done ill show my reprieve
With laughter and blood red tears
Hiding like tricks up my sleeve
I hide well, my years...
The black side of my heart knows no grief
nor regret, nor fear
Its forgotten how to smile with no reason to weep
Shes forgot how to hate
How to dream when she sleeps
Into blackness she fades
No spirit to keep....
For Spirit is the weakness...
She is just her Maid...
Bathed inside of sweetness
Of the blood through which life is made
I will not be vain
I shall become hollow
Arise from my Pain
Reborn from where I wallow
In the Depths of True Insane
MAgic I must swallow
For where there is belief
Love is sure to follow.

the fire for which we burn

2010-01-26T14:13:00.001-08:00

I have to see beneath your armor
to make sure you have skin
As my lips will graze upon
My eyes will see Within
to make sure you have the heart
To feel the greater things...
My Soul has to dance
It has too fly, it has to sing...
Like a passionate and timeless trance
where you touch, where you taste, where you see.
Do you live in fear of tragedy?
Do you follow fear or is it life you seek?
I'm a Fire chaser, I follow no time
But I still bleed blood from this heart of mine
Will you go through the depths of your hell
to be all I'll ever need?
to find your goddess, you must search the stars
She'll be looking just for you
in the Valley of the Scarred,
Awaiting your return
From the battlefield of the lost
In solitude a violent yearning...
You'll be back by Winter's Frost
Where Fire will always Burn
Where clocks will stop their turning
Time need not exist for now
In shelter of Strengthened arms
Enraptured, I avow
To never seek false charm
From now until Eternity
A God upon your arm
Coming home to seek Serenity
Where Winter seams not so long
In the span of One's destiny
She'll sing your worship songs
Of your Pride and Integrity
Give up your guns, in your Goddesses Domain
Forget of your grief, of your sorrow, of your pain
A God is no God if he's sheltered and vain
For life is your shadow from which you will learn
and love is the fire, for which we all burn...

shhhh

2010-01-24T21:17:00.001-08:00

Be still my breath, Be still my mind
Thoughts drift on air, Words against backdrop
The world disappears, one moment at a time
For no specific reason, but in chaotic rhyme
After maeltstrom, the water always stills
Silence revears the Storm
Which has her own of free will
she lacks compassion she lacks warmth
like a lion as he kills
The cycle is fullfilled
I dwindle into sound, small as every living note
Small as every atom, that never had to be
Insignificant as every word that had ever been wrote
But Its as LOUD as the eyes can see
Where on God the Angels Dote
Forever vowing to Humility, swearing off hypocrisy
But dancing with Insanity will always ens in death
Which is not eternal rest, but the souls arrest
leads him back to hell, for yet another test
The whippoorwill sings at night
Like the Sirens of my Sea
Yet still i follow, yet still I fight
In the darkness, or In the light
For the God inside me.

Faith before Foreplay

2010-01-22T22:49:00.001-08:00

As the saying goes, its just another day where what I want doesn't matter,
I'll sit here getting old, as I sit here getting fatter. Its easier this way, If I don't know, I won't care. This is how the world will stay. It matters not what I think, I am a product of society...I barely think at all...
So lie to me, lie to my face! Tell me once more how we're a free race, That these are our decisions and that YOUR Jesus, is MY only saving Grace, when all he did was preach to love your fellow man, But why should we do that, when we can fight on Holy Land! Lets take what was never ours, and use words, they'll never understand! Lets make their lives chaotic, Like living without hands. We promise we can change, and then we make demands...How can you learn anything, if your cups already full? How can you grow wings, if you're too afraid to fall? How will you learn to walk, if you never learned to crawl? How can we be strong, if we cannot stand tall, and how will we change, if we have no will at all?

Gray as Grim

2010-01-19T21:39:00.000-08:00

This is MY coffin
In which I lie awake
These are my shadows
These are my mistakes
I am merely Nothing
In the wake of my fate
In which I am living
For what I can ne'er Erase
Drowning in my sorrows
I become as Gray as Grim
As Black Surrounds my Death
Anubis weighs my Sins
Even Angels meet Retribution
As God's we do not Begin
This is the the way of the universe
It's time to try again.

Die by Me

2010-01-14T14:00:00.001-08:00

Is Death is just a wish my heart makes,
While I am fast asleep?
In darkness, I lie awake
Smiling as Angels Weep
Life suffering under Deaths wake,
On its walls...shadows creeping
Midnight Shines her black toothed grin
laughing as Angels are weeping.
Burdened over what THEY call sin
These secrets I am keeping

Just a while My love...
You keep my demons at bay
I'm black as night, my love
But I was born this Way
Seeping in disarray
I am Chaos my love,
The life and death of decay
Won't you cherish me love
Because I am this way?

Call on me midnight
While in Crimson Blood Red Moon:
Give to me your virgins
Fed on silver spoons
Not a moment too soon,
Before I wreak Havoc,
Before wreaking DOOM
Before I lay my ashes,
Death comes to soon...
as I shed Lifes skin
I reveal the blackest of wings
Ill teach you of the fear,
you bestow to false kings...
Ill show you with my tears
The destruction this will bring,
When the moon passeth over,
The ocean will sing
To the adoring Sun, the Chosen One...
Borne of Chaos and Reason
Inside winters season
I'll survive death
to ensure your rest...

Only for life, will you survive Sun,
Death your only Treason...
Only for love should you change Sun,
Death, the final appeasing.
If only the God's feel what we do,
If only they see what we see
They'll see the lies and the truths inside you
They'll see your miseries
View never askew
Your Future, Your History
As Prophet...not Jew
Is not Hell A Mystery?
And Heaven Just a view?

Just a while my love,
I'll Fight your demons away...
Though I'm Black as Pitch my love,
And in constant disarray
We can live against chaos
Or we can run from Death's Decay
While we cherish our love
we keep the blues away...
If I died for you, my love
My soul will imbue your armor
Death lying next to you
Her mask: the snake charmer
After life, death is for ever after
None but this, will ever matter...
For in death i am your wings...
and in life, I am your laughter.

Let's Dance

2010-01-05T19:42:00.001-08:00

I dance on meadows of stars
in the twilight of your eyes
My Heart skips ahead to far
I become paralyzed...
In the midst of all the darkness
I seek truth in disguise
Your touch is my melody
Your touch, is my demise

As fire becomes my soul
To the depths of my core
I SCREAM for more
Though I am old of spirit
It is Life that I adore
It is Love that I live for
I will worship only you
As the Eye of Myself
You will find only Truth
If you can find your wings, let them see...
I'll find mine inside of you
As black as they might be
Destructive Catastrophe
Is the nature of the beast

I found you in the valley of twilight
between your hate and my scars
Where we learned to fight
Is where we found our hearts
Whether wrong or right
this is our work of art
Our Cry in the dark
You are my Ego, I am your Mind
In the Death of Darkness
We intertwine
You steal my breath
Soft as wine, quick as Death
In shadows, we rest.

On fire my soul
Drowning my core
I am old of spirit
But Life, I adore
It is Love that I live for
I will worship only you
As the Eye of Myself
You will find only Truth
find your wings inside of me
I'll find mine in you
As black as they might be
Beauty making History
Never tragedy nor travesty
I put my faith in thee,
for It is YOU I have chosen to See.

Dance of the Muse

2009-12-28T05:25:00.001-08:00

Your mouth is dry, I give you Water
replenish your anxious spirit
Reach to the heavens
ask for the rain
I was Dancing on the water
When my feet rose off shore
I pine for, I adore...
Lovers of the sunrise,
Musing over magic
Telling me stories
Some funny, some Tragic
Violent, and Estranged
maniacally Deranged
Chaotically Prearranged
are the paths to destiny
A Positive Negativity
Who’d do anything for me...
The Court, and her Jester
A God and his Muse
A Queen and HER King
A Truth not Confused
Ruler of My Kingdom,
I’ll be Not your slave
I’ll be only yours,
but I will not behave
You can not tame the ocean
You cannot have my Will
You have my desire
My heart, made still...
Yes sir, my sire
I dance for only you,
In the midst of your emblazoned fires
I'll prove that I am true
Darkest of Demons
Meet the Angel’s of Day
The Truth will win at day break
But the Dark’s still here to stay
No reason not to play
It treads not upon my soul
Nor rips my life away
So I dance with the Devil
and I Sing to the Sun
So the kingdoms stay neutral
and nothing is Won.
My soul is now grounded
The future is now here
Reaction, resounding
in the lack of my fear
I choose to live
Right now to not confuse
I'll dance only for my King
As only His Muse

Bring me to Valhalla

2009-12-24T00:01:00.000-08:00

Carry me to Valhalla
The hall of Reckoning
I must be judged for my Life
I must face Odin
TO leave this Earth, I fight
the beasts I rode in
Who have turned against my name
To wind they cast Me
This is my shame, my retribution

I stand, among you Our GODS
To ask forgiveness for OUR deeds
I trade, the soul from which I bleed
For a taste of heaven
in the midst off all this Hell
To forever be forgiven
For the hate in which I dwell
Am I Forgiven?

I seek the dark inside the plague
I can't read the masks behind the stage
Where there are shadows
There's dark that we cant see
Every step, is one in Misery
So wicked, So estranged
Strangled in self treachery
becoming animals, deranged
can't you see it's in the stars
Predetermined, prearranged.

I stand, Beside you Our GODS!
To ask for help for our misfortunes
These were not OUR deeds
I give the soul from which I bleed
For a Glimpse of heaven
in the midst off all this Hell
To forever be forgiven
For the hate in which I dwell
Am I Forgiven?

Give us our daily MEAT

2009-12-23T23:49:00.000-08:00

I'll place in front of you a picture. what you see, is what you believe, what you see will always change, what you believe stays the same...you follow a lie because its whispered.,,"pssst...pay attention Mister, this ones important! Important to me is this decree, and if it's all the same to you, you should listen to me! FOr I've seen all there is to see, Its much more comfortable in my seat, I am the rich, the Elite!"
I stumble on this my brain, too confused, too dumb or too vain, to think for myself is insane! It matters not what I think! Nobody care's if I care! I don't care if I care!
Id rather be watching the boob tube! Getting shitty, getting drunk, getting fooled. I don't care what happens to my life...but I'm a pussy and I'm scared of dying. SO I'm gonna lie here and stop trying, and hope that someone listens to my whining.
Here he comes this noble shepherd, taking Sheep under his wing "I will take you, if you will feed me, the first of your sons and daughters, I will keep you, feed you, love you..worship me as your god, as yourself. SLit the throats of your begotten Sons, at the Death of Summer Sun, and I will be your chosen One.
We are embodiment of GODS! Slit not, the throats of the Sun! Slit open the throats of SHEEP, To give us our daily MEAT! Cry not for the spiritually TIMID, Cry not for the Minds of the Meak. Only the Strong will the GODS seek...Not the Dead...not the Weak.

DO you hear what I hear?

2009-12-22T05:47:00.000-08:00

Can I Shift reality
Will I suffer Banality
If this story becomes Tragic?
Will I wound my paper wings,
For the rights to foolish things?
By weaving spells of magic
Inside the heavens, I sing
To God's I offer My Being
TO see the bigger dream
What the Universe is Seeing
Is Quite the Spectacular Scene
In old Forgotten sayings
we know not what they mean
There is power on This Ley Line
I know what they are for...
The key to unopened Minds
The Key to all Unopened Doors
UNIverse is what you find
Then in, the magic pours.
Straight from the heart of the divine...
To each and every shore
Who couldn't ask for more?
When life is no longer a right
Will you die or will you fight?
I'm prepared to Defend you
If you prepared to defend me
And with the might of all powerful God's
We will eradicate thee
This is my final Decree
You will cease to be
Never making History.

Death of the Sun

2009-12-21T16:10:00.000-08:00

cold nights, warm hands
a warm heart makes no demands
A touch is for comfort
for love, relief
this requires no effort
Just let go...release
breath in a moment
Take it...it's yours
Touch just this moment
Take Heed, Don't ignore
What is this happening for?

Cold air, warm body
Fire light dances upon me
and here I am dancing for you
If only for your eyes
If only for this moment
Swaying to candlelight
a thousand violin's
singing to the thunder
song of the wind
trembling heartbeat
Fire Roars to Life
Passion meets Devotion
Happiness...strife
Love just like the ocean
Earth the Sun Wife
Mind and Body cursed
Universe show me your mercy.
Give the light for which I thirst.

Death Becomes Life

2009-12-20T18:04:00.000-08:00

Porcelain is never touched
dolls collecting dust
Eyes colored rust
cobwebs on her clothes, cobwebs in her hair
Spiders everywhere...
Listen to the silence,
vibrant in the air
Ghosts of history
dancing everywhere
Clinging to the hope that sunlight is near.
The darkness is over, it's magic from here
Hope survives Death
Death will conquer Fear
Fear will be man's downfall
Listen and you shall hear
the darkness and its beckoning call
Through Tormented tears and screaming
Out comes your demon
through blood guts and semen
In this the Dead Season
A Cycle has no End for ONE Reason
The Sun comes out again
To Kiss His Blue reflection
He warms her winter waters
In return for her adoration
and her waves of intuition
the Sun atop the Ocean
is Energy in motion.

Polarity

2009-12-17T07:44:00.000-08:00

As we Dance upon the atoms
Chaos arranging in air
You consciousness will fathom
God and The Devil as a pair
when chaos prevails it's not random
Though no reason to Despair
The Polarity is there

Dream will become Hope
Hope will become Destiny
Destiny becomes its Future
Future becomes our History
Love without Nurture
Turns to Hatred and Pain
Pain becomes Vital
when you're seeing through the vain
Welcome Mr. Ego
Come in from the rain
You look so kind, so regal
I'm sure you're not insane
Will you look into the mirror
So I can see that you won't change?
What is my true name?
AM I just like you?
Can anybody tell me the truth?

I feel inside My GOD,
but I Feel the Devil Too
These Questions plague my brain
I must see through whats not true
to take away my pain
My Pain I delve into
To See the God in me,
I must See Meet the Devil Too.
And while he plays his guitar
I'll be singing his blues.

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This Temple is MINE

2009-12-15T11:06:00.001-08:00

Breath to life my visions
Giving me open road
Freeing me of my own prison
TO live the life I've chose
Give me strength to live with reason
Give me Love without treason
I ask for you beside me
Calling you by your true name
Under Sky I will lie open
Subjected to my own dark despair
Enough Life in me to find
The heaven Ascended stairs
That lead me to my mind
To a place where I am Blind
Walls inside a dungeon
Without the light to see
I feel a cruel curmudgeon
Lying deep inside of me
Her breath smells of nothing
Glowering eyes of misery
Your lies, prove your tricks
Shadows and Dishonesty
No chivalry for the wicked
You do not belong here
I am throwing YOU out
I will not live in fear
While you Toss me about
My walls will build my fire
I have a voice so i can SHOUT
YOU WISH NOT TO PIQUE MY IRE!

The Dead have their Decree

2009-12-11T18:04:00.000-08:00

im walking towards the stairs now
Decending into hell
Flesh the death rot
is all that I can smell
It lingers in my throat
Like iron in the blood
Destruction this denotes
Blood Red is the Flood
The GOat is his disguise
He's tearing at my eyes
He's put Poison in my heart!
Sweet milk is their Disguise
I'm alive and being torn apart
By his razor edge ed lies
We are made into art
Given the blackest of wings!
Such a jolly disposition
rings like madness in your ears
A silent inquisition
From the Roots of all your fears
The lost find the devil
So his Queen can find her wings
Water seeking out all levels
destroying each and everything
Making for Life a new path
Of Destitution and Hate
A Bloody Virgin's Bath
Baptized in Darkness and Sorrow
The Root of Satan's wrath
In the Depths you will wallow
Where the shadows always follow...
You'll be found upon your knees
As the Dead are never free

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Real life or Fairy Tale?

2009-12-05T07:55:00.000-08:00

May I choose an elaborate fable
When I am choosing my own Tale?
I would believe, if I were able...
That miracles, prevail.
If I could dance all through the night,
Under a dusk like veil...
I would move like serpent does,
Before moving to impale...
Lie opened under moonlit sky
In thorns of blood red roses...
I breath and then I sigh...
This is oh so sweet repose
I bleed but I won't die
And I can still smell the roses...
If I had my body always
Life would be in vain...
To touch life forever...
Might take away all its meaning...
So we taste it all away...
Then we want to make it stay
Because we're feigning.
We want more and more and more
it's magic from which we're feeding
Like the drugs our bodies are needing
Because of the lives, we are leading...
What are YOU living them for?
Do you look for doors?
Or do you live on all fours?

Conscious Thought

2009-12-04T09:53:00.001-08:00

Take a silence, breath a minute
ponder conscience
Wander mind, wander thought
Wander Dreams
Sit still, change your mind
change your perception
Take apart what you believe
Make up your own minds...
Ask more then just a question
You must seek only truths
then Give your heart...share your mind
with you...and your kind
Explore in your abilities,
explore mysteries that you find
Be not afraid of the power of your mind
I will not be afraid of the power of my mind
Our lives are the sign...
The truth is, life divine
We are all time for all time
chaos meeting rhythm and rhyme
Evolution in the making
Heaven is our's for the taking
If our perceptions, we would rearrange
walls give way to open space
If only we knew what we were looking at
when we stare ourselves straight in the face
Conscience is the blessing of
Our life, as the Human Race.

Deny yourself

2009-12-03T20:08:00.001-08:00

So what's in the writing scarred prophet?
What's the real truth of reality?
Is there nothing we can do to stop it?!
Or is death of Soul a formality?
DO we conquer the fear that we hold?
Or Do we fold to what we are told?
The young no longer the bold...
Our Spirit has been diminished
To a sad and anxious little spark
No more Life, you are finished
One more light...gone out...in the dark

Three sisters

2009-12-03T20:07:00.000-08:00

My home is this graveyard
I am sheltered in Doom
The dead berate me
Under the crimson moon
In my own skin, I lie entombed
Death still haunting me in the spirit of noon
I lie in roses to keep me serene
Invoking the Demons
Who lie inside me
They wither at dawn,
then Im on my own
through flesh Im redeemed
I give up my throne
To the dead and diseased
Through the darkness they roam

The crow calls at midnight
the stars guide their way
Daylight she fights
in tattered remains
while the vampires soothes you
In the dark of the night
He drives you insane, with all of his might
An embrace so warm,
An embrace so tight
Fits to my form
Fitting just right...

As the wind whispers
to the man in the sky
Towards the three sisters
We cannot deny
Fire she beckons me
to stare in her eyes
Predatory victory
gives away his eyes
Gives away his shadows
to a grander disguise
Glancing into mirrors
You stare into the skies
The moon is the shepherd
The stars are my disguise
The night who cradles my bloody desires
is fed by the nightmares
that feed hells fires
stoked with the innocent
born of liars
layered upon funeral Pyre
As smoke lines the sky
with lust hate and greed
your dark angels destruction
can never be
Dark Angels are coming to Irradicate thee

Give Me Life

2009-11-18T07:07:00.000-08:00

Dreams of Mine
Flow like Wine
Love Divine
Taste of Truly
lost no more
life bleeds for all of me
Rain cleanses me
This is my reprieve
Let him see, what I see
I need not Pain
I shant refrain
From love, which is not my burden
Love is my saving grace
I am freed
by the hope that you've given me
Look into my face
All lies have been erased
You are my salvation
My peaceful and sovereign nation
I see no disgrace
In the shadows that I chase
I find no shame
In the shelter of your name
Life is not in vain
Life seeps from my veins
I am not deceived
By the fear that lies in me.

three sisters

2009-11-18T07:06:00.000-08:00

The moments lying in now

2009-11-16T08:57:00.001-08:00

I feel a slight, trembling from
the currents of sharp electricity
The strength I will summon
from brutal eccentricity
I am enough to fill
all my void
The air is so still
that i cannot avoid
the unmerciful veracity
Of this moment
This energy feeds my tenacity
My perspicacity is unyielding
My mind does it's own feeling
Without the hate, I'd been wielding
I stumbled upon the Sublime
I forgot of Space and Time
I forgot about Reason or Rhyme,
I sought and I kept seeking
But Peace, I could not find!
As I gave up, there it was! magic!
It was alive and well I felt hope!
No Fear I had of what could be tragic!
I forgot about negative noise
no thoughts...no drowning in static
Strength had found my Poise
It came from me old and creaky attic!
In the quiet of my dusty old toys
There lie guitars from Rock n Roll boys
They sat and played while I played dead dollies
I Remembered magic, I remembered folly
I remember reality calling
Not wanting to wake from my dreams
Benality ripping at bloody seams
Tells me I will be set free...
So I decide with frivolity
I will bleed with Glee...
If only so I can feed
My loves, my life, My seeds.

King of the Jews

2009-11-12T09:33:00.000-08:00

I walk alone, my own paths
I arrive at the depths of my fears...
With an Angel's wrath, i cry my tears
When I laugh, I laugh for years
When I live, I won't live in pieces
Cause When I Die, I'll Die for years...
As I Hate, I see the Hate in Me
Disgrace in thee, is disgrace in Me
Until I've let my monsters free
They'll never ever leave me....

I was born, the moon high above
Veiled in shadows
Not born out of love
Deceit and Lies,
they often slept with me
In the Midst of the Night
I silenced my cries
I put up a fight
With the Monsters laying at my side
Will you just let me be?

I begin to sprout my wings
As the Rain begins too sing
I come alive as it lies in me
My purpose settling on my shores
With this I can share my Peace,
With this I can live for more
When My Hate and Violence cease...
I'll find what Passion's for
And I'll do it with such ease
I'll do it just to please you

Give me the love of my Moon
And the silence of the shadows
Born me of Hate and of Love
Show me Deceit and Lies
Hold me through the Dark of the Night
Bring Alive My Cries
I might put up a Fight
Against the Monsters at my side
But now they're the ones who hide

SO let me clean off the old Piano
And I'll sing you a tune
About a time when life was ugly
But that's all that I knew...
I mighta did a lot of things
that you might not do
You can judge me or not
You're not me you're you...
And like me, you will rot
And like me, you are not
The King of the Jews...
We all get the blues....
;-)

mirrors and Illusions

2009-11-11T12:50:00.001-08:00

I walk steadily on, with a sense of urgency
And a sense of wonder,
Waiting for the chance to be Free
My Intentions are to See, the Truth inside ME
To be Face to Face with my Shadows
Face to Face with my Hate
Face to Face with my Sorrows
Face to Face with my Fate.
I refuse to Wade or Wallow
In the depths of mind slumber
where dreams. the dead things swallow
People become just numbers
But numbers only Follow
I will wake to find daily bread
In the visions you give me
Stuck in words, stuck in my head
I will sleep to find the dreaming
Its my mind that I am seeing
Free of Body, I free my Mind
to a higher state of being
I will search for I will Find
A place where I am humble and kind
Where I can have faith
and dance with Childlike Mirth
Wandering through days with no reason for haste
Listening to the earth,
Caressing her face...
As she breathes and she mumbles
her language True Divine
She knows on the steps I will stumble
I keep walking...taking my time
I'm Planting only Seeds
In my Rhythm in my Rhyme
Your mirrors you must Read
You Must never stop your study,
There are no conclusions
This story does not end,
A story is just Illusion,
With life, it cannot contend...

Ineffability

2009-11-06T19:52:00.001-08:00

I just want to blend in for awhile
to think about whats really worth my while
When i dont feel my smile I fade to gray
SLowly I feel my life draining my life away
SO I will lead my own way
Through these choices I must make
My soul I can't betray
This is the life that I've received
This mind and all of it's dreams
Its not my mind that is diseased
Its by our minds that we are freed
To give of our life, to plant these Seeds
Return to life, this is your spirits nature
Give of love, if just to nurture
Give of love if just to see
beyond our future into eternal eternity
Don't be a slave to momentary Lunacy
Don't be a slave to your fear
Do not lie crippled by your tears
Watch your shadows disappear
And as your mirror is made clear
To your purpose you will be near
Tis better then a long lost lover
tis better then long lost friends
A dream like none other
A dream that never ends
For our universe loves us as brothers
Its stars tell us we will be mended
As we go down in history
Over ourselves we share this victory
Once nothing is shrouded in mystery
Humility takes the place of foolish pride
Seeds will grow as Ego dies
Only we can see the truth inside
Once we stop trying to hide
If we had learned this years ago
True self would be friend, not Foe
If only we'd admit what we do not know
We'd see the universe is our's for the taking
For it's OUR history we are making
Our hearts are the ones we are breaking

How will i fly unless i find my wings
When will i feel, the lightning and the thunder
When will I hear the way the earth sings?
What is this spell of misery we are under?
Why do we forgo happiness for material things?
Why live if there's no reason for life?
We cannot see happiness, without the burdens of strife
we cannot know bliss without misery
We cannot know truth without lies
All of God's Angel's sent down to hell
To earth, Hell 's final resting place
Only for the sake of learning well...
The lessons of this, the human race.
And as the earth, our loving mother
Chases after her beloved Sun
Forever more and ever after
This Sun continues to Burn
And while it shines upon my face
There's still hope that we will learn
The Angels of our Races
Still watch the tables turn
As we align with the stars with ease
The future, we will seize
Without fear of tragedy
In ourselves we begin to see
The extent of our ineffability.

Be my halloween

2009-11-01T19:35:00.001-08:00

When the Rain is as cold as Winter
As the leaves Dance For the Moon
Into death we will enter
Not a Moment coming too Soon
Time will arrive at it's center
As the sky turns a Soft Maroon
On nights like this, I want you
As my ocean gives way to Monsoon.
In Magic, I do believe in...
I see Energy Dancing on Air
This Magic is not my worse sin
This Dance is a Grand Love Affair
Dance with me, across Eternities
In Deaths eyes we will gleefully stare
Be my Halloween
Be my Fred Astaire

The Night has become my Shelter
From the Eye of this Providential Storm
I am Healed from my own Helter Skelter
In His arms, still Feisty but Warm
Never farther from Harm, or from Danger
In the midst of his Carpathian Charm
Still my life, and my soul I will Wager
That on this night I will hold his arm
Light and Dark taking the stage...
We'll Dance upon another page
Where Tragedy Turns to Chivalry
The Animal Evolves Past his cage
Not a minute too soon, or too early
Comes Magic Dancing on the air!
No reasons to be sad sour or surly
This Dance is a Grand Love Affair!
Fire through me, across Eternity!
In Deaths eyes, I will gleefully Stare
If only he'd give me Halloween,
And A Charming Black Metal....Fred Astaire.

Symphony of Fallen Leaves

2009-10-29T14:30:00.000-07:00

The sky a gray shade of Winter
The wind on my face is so cold
Life unto Death is Delivered
The dance of the leaves is how we're told
A symphony so pale on the horizon
The song of life growing old
Darkness makes its way into vision
Darkness in an effortless mold
Settled into threads of submission
Settled in the death of its hold

Dawning a new dark day
The Sun will go blind
The Moon has come out to play
A Mystical and Magical sign
Not a single Ray of Sunshine
Will Shine through this Mist
The Water, the Sun can not kiss
But neither will it miss
This Illusion of what is Bliss

I'm afraid it's just ineffable
Death befalling all around;
They dance around their master
They dance upon their grave and their ground
Won't you dance with with me 'til after
My grave as well has been found
As the crow can finally see
A Maniacal laughter
ON this Crimson Hallows Eve
Fall has come not as disease
Can't you see he is so...pretty
As leaves fall into Symphony
The cold melts out of my heart
I feel the silence, I understand
The lesson life Imparts
Stay behind or take my hand...
Winter's coming let's just Fall
Hear the Wind in this Symphony of Leaves!
Be silent and Heed It's Call
Dance my love so you won't Freeze
This is your chance to end it All...

So It's A darkened Day
The sun has gone blind
But The Moon comes out to play...
A Mystically Magical sign!
Though not a Ray of Sunshine
Shines through this Mist
The Water, the Sun cannot kiss
But neither does it rely on!
This Illusion of what is Bliss
But surely I will dance like this...
In a state of that Illusionary bliss
But I can surely breath
In the symphony of these leaves<3

This Shadow is An Illusion

2009-10-29T14:29:00.000-07:00

This shadows is an Illusion
Current mood:TRUTH

Life is walking through many a door
As the light we seek grows dim
Don't forget what you're doing it for
Don't let your darkness win
If only your mind seeks justice
My heart not victimized...untied
SO you do yourself a great injustice
If you do it without Love at your side
As you face You and only Yourself
Will you choose to Run and Hide?
From the mirrors that your standing in front of
My love, from the shadows, you cannot die.

Your not alone in your tragedy
Love is how we are redeemed
Broken is your Dungeon Fallacy
You're more alive then you seem
When your eyes go a bit Glassy
I can see you in my dreams
I know the world gets a bit too lonely
I know nothing is as it seems
I see your heart, as well i see your fears
Face yourself my love cry your tears
Heaven on earth is here...right here...
Not in seconds, nor in days nor in years
On your skin, in your heart, from your tears...

Dance Across My Universe<3

2009-10-23T21:08:00.000-07:00

If this is the path I choose to lead,

straight into the heart of your destiny
Afraid I will not be,
For its you who stands NExt to me
If this is where my heart stays grounded
Truly I am blessed to have found it
No matter which way I walk
I cannot walk around it
If yours is the star that lights my soul
Then out of my hands is my control
For eternity, your hand I will hold
Through Space and Time, MY Life, Your Death
The hot of summer, or winters cold...
Yours is the love that I bleed for
That's all I need to be told...
My body never craving more...
Before you, I am shaking
As I give in to desolation
and my spirit waits for your time
In suspense, and in isolation
Until the day that you are mine...
With all my heart, for you, I long
With all my heart, i wait
My love has shown, there is no wrong
As your kiss has sealed my fate.
On my lips, and in my hair I feel your fingertips
On my skin, and on my hips,
Your actions wont say you love me
your eyes shows devotion lies there.
Share me ONLY with the dark of night
Along its stars we will saunter
While we love with all our might
Across the world, we will wander
For true love, I do fight
In storms, and torn asunder
Your soul is my guiding light
Your wings, I am sheltered under.

the blood of my truth

2009-10-21T16:43:00.000-07:00

Take me through the universe
Make alive my will to live...I'm just a sound from the earth. I seek to see alignment divine. I hope there is purpose for what I feel inside my head...Through my skin, in my heart or in my bed, I'd wish them all but then I'd wish that I were dead...cause this is the best it could ever be. When my head leaves from the world, It's ONE I think about.
I'm Tried and True, Devoutly Blue, Head over heels mad for you...
I'd be lying if I said...
I'd have another instead...
Not again and just for you...
But I like my men a litte Dangerous
I like to know that they love me
Somewhere in the middle of the night
When he'll only bite if you ask him to bite.
Take me, my soul to wander the universe,
I'm alive through my strength and devotion, our song a sound of the earth, One of the truth and divine.
My dreams are the place I take wander, My dreams where my heart can take hold
In the Night, when the moon sets the mold...for the storm which lays with the ocean.
My heart by which I bleed, My soul an open Star, by that which we are...
I avow for this eternity...
I'll be alone the rest of my days, for only your love I crave...
In the dark of the dark, and in the cold of my coldest days, my heart will yours remain...

It's like trigonometry...

2009-10-20T21:53:00.001-07:00

..Just in, the terror from the south,
She's come back for more and taken another victim,
she left this time her earring, and a note that said:
Dear John,
I won't be coming back again...

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I'm Letting go of all of it!
I feel like Imma TOY!!
I will never get used too
The sentiments of boys...
I see the same fucking pictures
The same memories, the same JOYS
With all of the same Miseries
I see myself as a Fixture
Stuck in cold reality
So forgive me if I
DOn't contain my RAGE
inside this Bloody Cage
I AM aware of what I see
I fear not, what's to be
I feel it growing inside me
This is who I am...
THis is who I am going to be
While I understand your points
You won't give me my dignity
This is what I'm made of
This what I am
I do it for me
I do it because I can
This is MY choice, mine alone
My Body I give to a man
I do it for me
simply because, I can
Don't worry about what's under my table
If you don't look, you won't see
I wouldn't hurt you, I'm not able
If you'll only love me for me <3

I should have lsitened

2009-10-18T09:39:00.002-07:00

I should have listened
Current mood:TRUTH

She said let it go...it's all the same
Know these words, they are your shame
DO not be sheltered
by the cross you hold dear
You're your own shadows
The dark is not so clear
In the deep is where you'll wallow
You show your fear
But you will swallow
All of those fears?!
Be not obscene, but take what you can
Be where you are
To Just see the gold in the sand
Your alive so be a man
You've got the universe in your hands
It's clear to see
It's LIfe you seek
But is of death you reak
In your spirit there lies no man.

(METAL.)
Your face is placid gray
I can smell on you your fear
If all you see is nothing
THEN Get fuck out!
There is no point in Living
If there is no point to care
AND the TRUTH THAT I AM GIVING
IS the TRUTH TO YOUR DESPAIR

MMM I'll live apart from my shadow
But I'll live as we are one
And in the night I will call him
And in the night he will come
Like A storm calls to my seas
Like the hot air and a breeze
I am how you get to breath
But I am not for you to seize
I must breathe my own air
Like a witch begets the seasons
as the Wife in Satan's lair
The Serpents follow their own reason
While men are to horny to care

(METAL!)
Your face becomes pale white
I can smell on you sweet fear
All you can see is nothing
It's too late to get the fuck out!
There is no point in really caring
No point in doubting,
and no point in despairing

When we meet, along the way
I hope I hear you stop to say:
I should've listened
I couldn't hear you anyway
I know I should've listened
But I had to go my own way
If I would have listened
I wouldn't be where I am today
If I could have listened
I would have done the same things anyway....

I should have lsitened

2009-10-18T09:39:00.001-07:00

I should have listened
Current mood:TRUTH

She said let it go...it's all the same
Know these words, they are your shame
DO not be sheltered
by the cross you hold dear
You're your own shadows
The dark is not so clear
In the deep is where you'll wallow
You show your fear
But you will swallow
All of those fears?!
Be not obscene, but take what you can
Be where you are
To Just see the gold in the sand
Your alive so be a man
You've got the universe in your hands
It's clear to see
It's LIfe you seek
But is of death you reak
In your spirit there lies no man.

(METAL.)
Your face is placid gray
I can smell on you your fear
If all you see is nothing
THEN Get fuck out!
There is no point in Living
If there is no point to care
AND the TRUTH THAT I AM GIVING
IS the TRUTH TO YOUR DESPAIR

MMM I'll live apart from my shadow
But I'll live as we are one
And in the night I will call him
And in the night he will come
Like A storm calls to my seas
Like the hot air and a breeze
I am how you get to breath
But I am not for you to seize
I must breathe my own air
Like a witch begets the seasons
as the Wife in Satan's lair
The Serpents follow their own reason
And the men are to horny to care

(METAL!)
Your face becomes pale white
I can smell on you sweet fear
All you can see is nothing
It's too late to get the fuck out!
There is no point in really caring
No point in doubting,
and no point in despairing

When we meet, along the way
I hope I hear you stop to say:
I should've listened
I couldn't hear you anyway
I know I should've listened
But I had to go my own way
If I would have listened
I wouldn't be where I am today
If I could have listened
I would have done the same things anyway....

I had to end it here...

2009-10-18T08:47:00.000-07:00

If I follow my path to the stars
Will I find what I need once I get there?
I know my mutilations... my scars
I feel them, as I chop off my hair
This pain is not yours, its just ours
All we want you do is just care...
On the way through this bottomless Journey
It's nice to see a little light in the dark
No it's not for the whimsical me
It's for the flame that will light from my spark.
I'm ashamed of the careless; the weak
Because listen, we speak! WE HARK
And we do so with the might of our hearts
We're ashamed of the timid, the meek
Who stand not for true justice, nor seek
to pay us, for our love and not our names
For in the light of the true shine so boldly
We are the Beautiful, the Wicked, the Untamed
We are the Shadows, The Mirrors, The Vain,
We are the Truth, The Spirit, The Light
We are the Fire, The Passion, The Fight
We'll live without you, and you will surely learn
How you love us with all of your might:
At midnight we will take turns
as the fires they linger and burn
As we dance, The dance of mirth
On earth, in the moon, on the sky
The truth of the moment lies clear
We could never die, not here
We the children, of the universe, my dears
We are life, we are death *We are here.
Let us live, or let us die We are near
TO the center of the Stars for ALL YEARS
Let us speak as if this is true
That just means that me and you...and me and you...
Are just...

Friend Vs. Foe

2009-10-18T08:46:00.000-07:00

Well isn't this nice, ain't this sweet?
YOur so mean because you can?
You make me forget why I ever loved you
When you pretend to act like a MAN

It's Not that I'm not deeply humbled,
by the act of your Worshiping my body
It's just a shame you can't talk, you just mumble
When I'm being just downright naughty
If I'm in for it, PLEASE! Oh Lordy!
All of you are quite the same...
Will you cum when I say your name?
Or Is my daddy just a big fucking baby?!
Are you covered with piss drunk in shame?
Do you hate the ways that I know you?
Is it life where you choose to place blame?
I'd keep caring, if it weren't a waste of my time
Why give love, if you get nothing back?
It's a sign that these are signs of pure misery
I refuse to make up, for what you lack.
Eat a dick, and lick my fucking sack.
I am a woman, and I do have my needs
no for granted, you won't be taking me
I'm top notch I deserve to be pleased
And I can say that I might be quite dangerous
And I do make alottofa fuss
I'm handful, on the street, and in the bed
And I'm certain I've already said:
I'll be around forever,
until the day we both get dead
Friend or Foe I'll love you
or I'll hate you til the end.
While I mean nor harm nor displeasure
The worst I can do, is forget ya.

TO the Death!

2009-10-13T10:59:00.001-07:00

Not lost is my faith in all of you, True, the selfish are not brave
you shan't know your own true worth until you know your true name
It's a shame it is so obvious, the blame you place on life
the lessons that shes teaching us, is not without its pain nor strife
It hurts like empty when your sad, or when you're all alone
When the sideshows go home and leave you, it's YOU whose on your own
to face or fight your shadows, to deny yourself of death
To linger in your misery is to know your true depth
To watch your every shadow, to breath every breath
For there is no love without sorrow,
and there is no life without death.
My tears won't wait for tomorrow
My heart is the path I must yearn
In the love of OUR being is where I choose to learn
To as far to the edge of my seeing, to as far as the sun can burn
My mind will keep on traveling through every toss and turn
Until every bump's been taken, with a sense of childlike glee
For at the end of this road, another is awaiting me
And until then, I will not see the moon shine on my face
For I will have to walk through my disgrace
With my fear confronting me
For as long as I'm still, I am not living
And my soul to the gray, I am not giving
I will live strong, and these treacherous paths I will Tread
My mind will travel with heart, and no longer any dread
For the life inside me burns deep red
Nothing like all, but surely a not none
Can bear the truths of the chosen some.
For even the deaf, blind and dumb can see the wicked start sinking
In the bogs of damnation, guarded by yourself- the sanctioned
Who without merely blinking, your spirit, they started drinking
Free to take the spirit within you
Because sir your love was not true
And if by way, you're truly thinking, of getting far away
You'll do your sinking, while truthfully drinking
The entirety of your own...blackened...nothing.

2009-10-07T19:10:00.001-07:00

Born Anew, tried again, safe and sound, free atlast. Tragedy lives, love never dies, the old never live, the young never die. This feels like rain, this feels like fire, This kills my pain, this piques my IRE. THese walls Do talk, this heart does fight, this girl does yearn for lovin' allllll night. The lights are on, Just turn them off, see it all, touch it, it's soft. You read my mind, You Read Indeed, After picking out, the stems and seeds. A bit concerned with ever-after, a little obsessed with love and laughter. If truth was sought, it might be found, she's been around, but she's quite the clown. If all this, irrelevant be, I'll live my life, truly,torture free. If My love, and your peace(piece)could just co-exist, sweet nectar and sweet honey-bliss, would be in the depths, of our kiss. Do chase the morning sun! for life is lived, not won, love is wise, not dumb ~ Love is all that freedom sees, Love will lasts through histories through vast and numerous hypocracies. BUT TRUTH leeds farther still, onto True Harmony
And all this will seize the day. All this, we hope and we pray, For truth to find its way, through Chaos, hate, and disarray.
If I may, and If I might have this wish I wish tonight
I'll wish for love, then dynamite.
And if I might and if I may...
SHOW on this night, what I wanted to say.

making it fair

2009-10-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

The Devils in thee

2009-10-01T12:28:00.001-07:00

COme in from the rain...please
Warm fires in my hearth there be
No need for you to freeze
My words you must heed
There are shadows on the walls
They taunt your strange disease
I warn that you will fall
If you heed the devil's call
Your heart your mind will seize
Grave Despair your on your knees
When you heed the devil's call
He hears your cries your pleas
love lust or despair
He revels in your falling
Laughter in the air
feel your heart grow a little bit colder
Will you give in, or will you get bolder?
Stand tall and you might see
A path has been made clear:
Misfortune Lives in Fear
wouldn't you know my dear
That only in the truly righteous
Will Love Persevere
THe cold becomes not so dangerous,
There is no pain in your tears
Life's no longer carnivorous
And love lasts past years

SO come in from the rain...please?
Warm fire in my hearth, there will always be...
No need for you to freeze
My words, you should heed
Or precious life, you will bleed
If you refuse to see: the devil in thee....

Likewise.

2009-09-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

Is a fairy tale!unfathomable,

sweet amor lasting lifetimes through
a strong fourth leg on this servants table,
A vibrant and violent red hue
emanates from our true and living fable...
From my soul and me, and your soul and you
In a moment life becomes passionate,
In only love, can a spirit remain true
Like madness it makes me quite irrational~
And in a moment, it makes me quite blue.
I'm alive! FOr once I can tell you!
Not I feel death, but rightful victory,
Though I am wounded, let this be heard:
Truth is my liberty:
Love is YOUR lesson to be learned well ::my love::
A somewhat free trip out of hell
My candles can bring light to your shadows ::my love::
Hateful perverse demons, true love doth quell
As I save you from your self created gallows::my love::
You keep me from my vagrant lunacy.
My heart, your mind has swallowed
My humble heart my love, I gave to thee
With no malcontent nor vanity
I gave my love, and all of my love,
so that we could be set free
SO that even in the midst of lunacy,
you would be all I would see.
In the dark, I shy past black dragons
Who'd adore and love to tear me apart
And while they might ravage my body:
They will never find my heart
They seek my soul to be queen
But my soul, and my heart...never part.
I am all that is yet to be seen
to my future I will depart
with you or without you, and even in vain:
But truly sir, you have my heart
In pleasure, and sweet pain
I shall go on, I am still me,
But it's you that I will want...
Until I reach the depths of my destiny.

Theatre of Zee moment

2009-09-19T13:49:00.000-07:00

If your touch would make my lips red
then your kiss would lift my gray
Your love could bring back the dead
with a heartbeat, from my grave
If you come to make me alive
My king: THis won't come free or easy
you have to give me evrything you've got
Do what I want just to please me
and i'll show you everything you're not
this you must take graciously
THought you may not be able to see
In The theatre of the moment
which Burdens life with expectancy
A gruesome tale of love hell bent
A heaven sent for you, by yours truly:
Your Excellency.
Myself. Be not so wicked
In the depths of misery
for truth this bane I've lick'd it
And I've done this selflessly.
I dare to say I'll live on,
THough a scant atrociously
But this be my souls heartsong:
and I shant be melencholy nor blue
Because while in death I'll wander
Over hills and yonder: Too find you
Against the wind love is torn asunder
while the sky be perfect blue
Still I am dragged in and dragged under
To the Devil's unholy plunders:
To which I can find you
Before they take me alive
To find you would be quite easy
But death doesn't have to take bribes
For the darkness of hell does tease me
only for the treasures I never sought
The ones that make me vile, angry and sleazy
The ones to be bargained, dealt and bought
I'm too alive they can't seize me
cause I follow dark pathways to you
Only Gray but for blood teeth and rot
I keep going because I have to find you
I'm here cause i'm going to bring you out
Snap out of it, this is not how it seems
I wont see you whine, cry, or pout
You will follow because I am your queen.
Sweet king this is just a dream
Nothing is as it seems...

Can you feel your dreams?

2009-09-15T11:40:00.000-07:00

In this placid mist of gray twilight
The broken lay lost and forlorn
They cry upon the death of midnight
They bleed. and they die, and they mourn
Wretched vagrants lie in anxious blight
devouring the spirits that true love doth borne
dejection caught you in the cold sight
A grim revealing that all started is torn
And this parable is worth all this fight?
This hunger, this fire, this War

Lying sheltered and lost deep within me
I feel an angel, she's coming undone
IS THIS the point? us never being free
What is the point? I see none!
these points they're lost within the sea
The water leads to the death of the sun!
She leaves with haste and no apology
The truth? Its all a game to be won!
Will this loss be the one that follows me?
My heart, I cant outrun.

In all this torture there be glory
Tried-True a blessing sent
never a tragic love story
An epic beginning to a melancholy end?
sweet death restore my wicked body
cleanse me of the beast i've let in
The one I love, I love ferociously
a little bit of evil in my sin
in the midst of all my blissfullness
I behave atrociously,
And this I admit on the foreground
that you will love me graciously
I wont be wicked nor ever sly
When I misbehave a little bit
I wont shy from eye to eye
and I refuse to ever quit
This bad girl loves her mysteries
And a bad boy loves great tits
It's all for the sake of history
all for the sake of her lips
all in the throws of dark passion
Love and lust collide at the moon
electricity and fire in radical action
That come never late, nor too soon
And in a state of satisfaction
You wake up...half past noon...

methodical madness

2009-09-14T18:21:00.001-07:00

methodical madness
Current mood: adored

It's a warm eve of death
the colors fade to black
If nothing else is true, know that summer will be back
A time for solace and rest
The dead shall be reborn
Life will shine its big picture
no reason to be forlorn
This time is for reflection,
This time alone with grief
This time is for apprehension
As time turns new leaf
There IS but reason for sadness
there IS but reason for pain
There are methods to this madness
And no! It can't always rain,
though the water colds to your bones
as you hold on for dear life
worry not for the life that's unknown
It will come, in joy or in strife
And the yesteryears you've only known
Will only seem alright
For the future is what we fight for
A future, is not wrong, nor right
but She fancies the flight of breeze
Cool on her fingertips
And tHe whisper of tall trees
Far past the sigh of her lips
Among the seas of open seas
And in her fertile hips
she offers service, on broken knees
On broken, but well equipped
Whose solemn and so true vow
Which stumbled in on love's bequest
As a kiss and touch should allow
Without will, nor fight, nor test
As a cycle, our God, so did, endow
And as a cycle, This never RESTS.

love vs. sketicism

2009-09-14T18:18:00.001-07:00

What is the purpose in love?
A wager that is mighty dangerous
Is danger what we're afraid of?
A feeling so deep and rancorous
We come in wearing gloves
weary of the wretchedly GLORIOUS
sweet poison that comes from above
Its ment to free not slave us
Our cold and obediant drug

Its a blind way of running
but a great way to fall
You're a little too much like plunging
Running headfirst towards nothing at all
In all it's earthly splendor
You're back against the wall

It's a bit like fire and demons
a lot like love and lust
a little like cut throat heathens
In the bosoms of your bust
A Tad like fighting monsters
And it drives you fucking nuts
When you're alive you feel like dying
Once Its gone it feels like death
A lie is well past lying
once its past the hum of breath
Once your all done flying
And your love is nevermore
will you feel like dancing all alone
Or licking salt off your whores

You'll find your not afraid of running
And you're no afraid to fall
It's not about the plunging
Or going headfirst towards that wall
ITs more about getting there
too find this is not what you want at all

No sir I'm not afraid of dying
And I"M NOT AFRAID TOO FALL
I'm just afraid of never living
And never standing just as tall
as the man who stands beside me
As we go headfirst towards that wall